Date: 7/21/2008

A Bad Year 2008

Hello all mates.. This year has been crap most of the time.. It really sucks since im writing this with a 4 year old spoken english style... This year is happpened too many unforgetful events..How i wish i could end this year fast lol with my sleep? Whoever reading this, u can tell that this shit year of mine is really 'suay' or unlucky in Hokkien.. First, after a bad fight with my then girlfriend, lovely jasmine, in 2007 xmas, i thought im going to lose her..Im really sad, its a bad quarell i could remember.. My days with her that time are counted..Our relationship is like an egg on a nail..So unbalanced.. Ok.. im talking abt 2007, not 2008, but u will get the point as u read.. So here its starts.. On 1 January 2008: 0000hrs, it was the New Year! Yea im happy n excited as i hope for a better year den the year be4.. Right outside my window, some pyrotechnics display was lighting up the night sky to acknowledge the brilliant year arrival.. I wished.. Few minutes later, jasmine sms-ed me.. She wish me for a happy new year n tell me that she really loves me! Im so gay that night...! Happy beyond words! After all that post xmas punch about, we are together again, indicating a extend in our love 'contract'.. Immediately, i my wish for 2008 is for me to have another loveliest year with her.. Hoped she stays with me till 2009.. But did she? Read on.. I waited anxiously for my GCSE exam result.. Its on the 24th January.. Doing well enough in this exam will enabled me to progress myself to a diploma in an established college.. I really wanna go there.. Ive wasted my chances in high school, mixing with deliquents in my class n dwindling in my class performances.. Seriously, my performance for Secondary 3 n 4 has been fairly good, but on that final year, i failed..! I got 12 points n it need a minimum points of 10 or below to advance to the next stage of the exam.. Wtf! Those of my friends that fall in the same category as me went n to some technical institude.. But i didnt.. Coz i wanna retake that 'advanced' exam n make it to college. My mom paid some amount for me to sit for that exam as a private candidate... I study hard, especially in those few last month till the exam..As i received my result slip in my mailbox on that Jan, my heart sank.. I was unsuccessful.. I failed bad.. Very badly.. How could that happen? i only managed 2 passes out of 5.. I didnt get myself a seat to my college.. How could this be? i didnt know either.. Many times i thought that the marker must be mistaken.. She must been feeling sleepy after all her markings of exam papers n when it came to mine, she must have reached her optimum point.. What the fuck i thought to myself.. But im determined to move on.. I wont just stop n stare at my blank future.. Surely i will move on to the next road n so, i move on with my life.. I decided to take up a private diploma this time..I register my self at a Australia university n few days later a lady called me up.. She told me i qualified for the course i was intrested in and asked me to go to the stated college address.. It was Murdorgh University, singapore campus.. I went on the idea n meet the programme consultant on 6 March at 3 Pm as appointed by her... I walked in and saw an awesome lady.. I asked that bitch that i have an interview with Gong Yaling, the lady that called me few days earlier n set up this appointment..She stood up n mentioned my name.. We shook hands n i felt like i was holding the flesh of a Natalie portman.. She was gorgoues.. As we chat about the programme, i keep staring at her chest..What a pervert i was.. Her tits is brilliant n her face is silky.. Its is an amazing encounter with such an animal.. After discussing for awhile, i told her that i will called her a few days later n confirmed it with her on whether i will pursue my interest to study that course..She agreed n i went away.. That point, i already make up my mind.. It is fucking expensive..Abt US $8500 for a piece of laminate certificate? Fuck come on its useless.. I wanna try another place..As i was going home, i decided to go to thj=is guitar parlour n see if there is any new guitars or overdrived that has just arrived..On the way, i decided to text my gf..I wanna tell her that abt my recent visit to the school earlier..But she repiled me with something..something that make me shiver with fear..She told me that she has been thinking abt our relationship.. She told me that her mom doesnt like ,me.. I didnt know why, i didnt even met her be4.. So y is she always hate me? She is crazy i thought.. But as our text went on, something struck me..I was suddenly thinking, was jasmine using her mom to ditch me for some guys she just met? i didnt know, i will never will.. But if i ever did, i will can now that however innocent looking face a girl have, she may have a heart of her devil..Back to her, as i was on the train on the way home, i felt stupid in the middle of the ride..Why does she wanna go? i really loved her so much, and the only girl that i ever loved this much..She really trying to tell me that she wanna leave me, for good!! What did i miss out?? What do i lack that other guys have instead of me? I try to give her everything..She really cant tell how much she mean to me..We chat almost everyday, so if one day i were to lose her, how will i feel? i didnt even dare to think of that day.. i dun wanna that to happen, but it just happen...! She she have to go? i dunno.. As i reached home full of sorrow, i straight went to my bed n cover myself in blanket..I keep crying in silenced as i know, this time she really going to leave...As i say my last goodbye to her, i give her my last text kiss...u know, we always exchange that when we chat.. Again, i thought to myself, life has to go on... I always shed a tear, randomly on most night...Each time of her coming to my thoughts..If you were to read this jasmine, i wanna let you know.. I really love you alot that time..Much more dem anyting that i possess.. Even my favourite guitar that time..I always try to keep u happy and to be with me always..I remembered u text me u cant sleep one night and me was awke in the middle of the night by the sound from my phone... I went out of my house after waking up n it was abt 2am that morning so i could go to the 24hr convinienced store to get a top-up card so i can refills my phone credit n i can sms u..You need me, i was there for you..But when i need u, where are you?? I sacrifices alot for u, n never u did appreciate it...Even if u did, u didnt show me u were...It was like u were one kind of girl for me..I really feel sad if u left me coz u loathed me.. U rather went out with other friends of yours den me..Im too ugly to be by u rite lol... I wonder after u left me, do u miss me? Mmm,, according to my instinct, u did..But only less den two weeks right? COz u got more better looking guys to be your mate the the ugly me loll.. I still miss u till right now, sometimes i will thought of you n things we do together, even now (22072008)..I decided that i will wanna forget u on our upcoming aniverssary, the day we got hitched lol .. I wanna be myself again and moved on..Its been more den 6mmonths now n u was always in my mind..Never once i thought of cheating you, not at all..Even after we broke up, i still felt guilty whenever i walked with other girls and chances upon you in the street...Im scared that u will get hurt by seeing me that way...That is how much i loved you..But you? U already start kissing with a guy barely 3 months on..That is a sign that u didnt respect me..U even boldly tell me that..U asked for help..From me? Fuck you!!! U were juz trying to hurt me right? Or u really looking for a shoulder to cry on coz mybe that guy has cause u stressed u up?? No way this shoulder no longer belong to you..Ok im to tired to say things abt us...Ive said it right altogether..I believe that i will be the man after i beat the man, whoever it is... My next bad luck concerned Chelsea..No its not another girl's name, but a West London football club..Ive been a Chelsea Fan since im 8yrs old n i know abt em from those sticker books..Its also related to celestine babayaro..I like his name, so i supporrt chelsea..Cool! i want them to win the champions league so much! Coz to me, if u win the european cup, u are consider as one of the best club in the world..! First, some where in the year 2000..Its chelsea vs Barca.. I was amaze to see chelsea win 3-1 at home to them..Was it lucky? 1-0 maybe.. 2-1 bit lucky..But this is 3-1!! Wow the are good..! A fornight later, we went to nOu camp to face them at their yard.. It always difficult for chelsea to win away..And they hv to do it against barca, with stars such as Figo, Kluivert, Ronaldo, puyol n king Rivaldo...Wtf is this i thought..They win 3-1 against chelsea and i thought, what??? There's extra time, n they score another two goals to make it 6-4 win on aggregate..Ok..They is always next year..UP come Roman Abramovich.. This man is brilliant i thought..His first words was that he wanna make chelsea the best team in the world..Edgar davids, Hidetoshi Nakata, Luis Figo... He wanna bring them all to stamford bridge..That year, Chelsea just beat Liverpool 1-0 nil to qualify for the 2003-2004 Champs league...We are up in a group with lazio, i was scared..But we won them once.. Until the quarter final round, we create history..We make a comeback against Arsenal to win an historic match! It is one of my favourite match of all time!!!! Yea i thought..!! We are going to the semis to face easy Monaco !! But we were knockout.. I remember, Nonda coming out from the bench n put the ball thru the net under then goalkeeper Amborosio.. It was over..Chelsea time has gone! I say to myself..Next year.. Again next year, it was Newly crowned European Mourinho in charge of chelsea! We were aain knock out against Liverpool by a her goal given from Heaven..I have to argue, THA T BALL DIDNT GONE IN!! You get me??? In the last seconds, just a split seconds late, eidur Gudjohnsen could justr squeeze one goal n put us to the final.. Noo.. We are not going to Istanbul that year, even after a magnificient win against Barcelona...But Barca got their revenge the following year..We made look like Escape pigs..My favouite player, Ronaldinho, really kick us Chelsea in the face!! Fuck!! He is damm good, especially with that last goal... It was brillliant.. I thought, ok next year there will be next time...But again, again n again n again, fucking liverpool knock us out!!!!!!!!! Fucking Agger n Kuyt!!! We Finally reached the final this year.. Drogba n arsehole for the slap..He could have taken the penalty n we will win that cup, surely..John slips, but he is a legend to me! probably the greatest chelsea captain we ever had..! We lost.. I lost.. My misery has been completed with russia out of Euro 2008..You see, i backed Russia and Spain to win the euro, but im still good as both of them make i to the semis..So im the guru lol..As i wait for more trouble to encast me, i rather stop typing now as i were nearly dead writing all this crap...No gf, no college no life.. But who cares? i got a 'dream' job recntly n i gotta fix my life back..PIcked up every pieces that were destroyed.. Once again, sorry for my bad english lol n i wish that 2009 gonna be a better year for! Thanks for reading n fuck u all hahAz!!


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